3 months later

I'm finding most days really difficult to cope with right now - I still adore my boys and fiance, no worries there, but I'm finding I barely have any time for myself. The boys are in a bedtime routine now so I get on average 1 and a half hours per evening and by then I'm knackered. I have been feeling very angry recently and haven't had a whole nights sleep yet. Still breastfeeding Alex, who is smiling all the time now, have had re-occuring thrush as a result of 3 courses of antibiotics - infection, thrush, abscess 'down there' (couldn't sit down for days and then it burst - not nice), mastitis and chest infection. One thing after another, totally pissed off with it. I'm going to see the doctor tomorrow to try and sort my head out. Oh, and I need a haircut and generally look like shit.